Depression Update
Things Aren’t Worse
My depression isn’t better, but at least it isn’t worse. I’ve managed to keep up with the basics like hygiene and walking the dogs. My appointments are harder to keep and the ones I was able to attend were exhausting. It’s tiring putting on a happy face so others think I’m okay.
My therapists (I have two, one for cognitive behavioral therapy and the other for processing my issues) agreed that dropping out of the writing workshop was in my best interest considering my current state. I feel embarrassed and sad about not completing workshop, and it also brings up feelings of guilt for leaving. But I don’t have the energy for participating in discussions right now anyway. Or doing much of anything else.
The weather certainly hasn’t helped as it’s been gray here for a while, with the sun peeking out from behind the clouds only occasionally. I like to think that using my light box is keeping this depression from getting worse. We also got about three inches of snow with more to come. I’m not cold outside because I wear a heavy parka and snowpants when it’s in the single digits or less, but the act of walking the dogs, which used to be so easy, requires more of an effort. Everything, really, requires more effort.
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Self care is important, there will be other workshops. Sending positive energy your way!
It shows how kind and caring you are to update your readers, Barb. I am sending you supportive energy through my words here. You are doing a great job taking care of yourself given the depression.